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Juz reformatted my com again... Some spy ware screwed it up.... Had oikos todae... Was ok...
The easter drama was gd... Really featured wat was the reality of the world todae... Tot of asking my parents to go, asked liaoz and they rejected me straight in my face... Haiz... Went shopping with jer hz and nigel after tt... Walked ard in search of pressies... Walked until almost died... Frm orchard to ps... Then hz gotta go for some leaders dinner so me and jer tot of going back to orchard to get her present at last.... MAnz her present cost me BIG bucks can... She BETTER appreciates it... Nvm la guess its worthwhile for a frenz... Toked on thurs at starbucks... Long time no chat... Feels gd chatting up and stuff... Reflected abit...
I dunno man... Church... This word has becum so carelessly handled... Frm the dae i stepped into harvester till now... Though not very long... Ups and downs... Experienced God and the pple there... Has sort of became a part of them... A common mission a common purpose... To bring pple to Christ and spread the gospel... tt was the innocent me at the beginning... Time passed and I saw how pple cum and go... Esp frm my cell... I saw how my frenz stood motionless and totally not moved when the message was spoken and when the drama was played... I saw how one by one my frenz cum and go out the same with the word written no big deal on their forehead and there will always be a next time mentality... I saw the way how the leaders of the church handle stuff... I cant deny the fact tt im disappointed...
I dunno abt it... Im tired... Im tired of going through the motion... Im tired of becuming a part of them... Im tired of seeing pple cum and go... And seriously im lost... I dunno wad to do abt it... Maybe its juz my fault tt i din hold the pple tt ive brought... Maybe i din spend enuff time praying for them... Church has becum a mundane word... a routine word... maybe sometimes a hypocritic word... I wan to be a strength to help... I wan to see the pple cuming back again... But hus there to noe my heart... Hus there to partner with me... Pple are busy with their own stuff... They have no time for souls... I feel so helpless... Why have i gotten myself into this mess in the first place...
Nt feeling so gd these few daes... Kinda troubled... Dunno y... Crap guess i needa break or something...Arrrgggghhhh...

Watched the stars in the sky

Seems like yesterday

Tried so hard to live

I cried a tear

You wiped it dry

I was confused

You cleared my mind