Psalm 77

The Lord spoke

"Be bold and stouthearted

For your labor will not be in vain

Though things are not going the way you want it to be,

Perservere"

It was so clear

Perhaps He had said tt many times but I din catch it

But still He made sure that I got the message

Lord thank you

For you Ill hold on

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It was suppose to be fellowship, but it turned out to be a waste of time...

Darkess is my closest friend

I see souls leaving

I see relationships broken

Lord juz what am I suppose to do

Im tired

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Ill take it off if you ask me to...

Fall afresh on me...

O's is finally over for a period of time already... Long time nv time nv update... Cos been writing in my diary instead of here... Hahha so here goes...
Right since now its over leaving me alot of time in hand...Activities flooding filling up my days everydae... Alot of stuff cuming up... But I guess now is the time to sit down for a moment and think wad I need to do... God spoke to me to get back souls in Fairfield.... Feeling the urgency to claim back the souls into Gods kingdom... God Im sorry for my inconsistency, my broken promises God, throwing away the vision that you have laid upon my heart... Taking it so lightly, looking at my own interest, my own priorites and neglecting your business, Lord forgive me...Been in west 4 for quite a long time... The cell has been so stagnant and even worst when pple started to leave... Felt inadequant... How could I juz let my friends leave right before my eyes and not doing anything in the past and now God you want me to get them back... Manz... How dumb of me God to let them slip away before my eyes in the first place, God Im comfused and have no idea wad to do except to pray... And pray harder... Felt the burden for souls, the souls that Ive targeted, Lord move and touch them... I pray juz one soul everyweek to be in your kingdom... Juz one... Lord help me to be committed.. The heart and the will to get them back... Lord Im willing to be used by you, my heart cries out Lord bring them back into your kingdom, how could they ever survive without you... Lord teach me and guide me, let me continue to labour for you and Lord you will do the rest of the job.... Courage, boldness, selflessness, love, willingness, patience, perserverence, God help me...

Why have You chosen me
Out of millions Your child to be
You know all the wrongs
That I have done
O how could You pardon me
Forgive my iniquities
To save me through Jesus Your Son

But Lord help me be
What You want me to be
Your words I will strive to obey
My life I now give
For You I will live
And walk by Your side all the way

I am amazed to know
That the Lord so great could love me so
He’s willing to watch over me
His mercy is wonderful
His grace is so bountiful
I can’t understand as I confess

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Looking forward...

amazed

You dance over me

While I am unaware

You sing all around

But I never hear the sound

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I'm amazed by You

fool

Seems my own arrogance

Has knocked me off my feet again

When you know I’m crawling to you as fast as I can

First teach me to walk

And then I’ll learn to dance for you

Like an honest clumsy clown

Tripping along the way

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Cause I am reaching for you

But my arms aren’t long enough

And I am running to you

If I could go a little faster

And I am crying to you

But I can’t hear my own voice

And I am waiting for you

Trying not to fall asleep now

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Cause I’m clumsily dancing away this fear

Come stumbling closer to you

And I’m tumbling over my pride

I will be a fool for you

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What are you thinking as you look down on me

Are you frustrated with my inconsistency

Or intrigued that I can find the will to get back on board

Maybe all of this is simply amusing