Purpose

One more paper to go... The papers were killers, dont think will pass any though I studied... Hate this feeling when you noe you have studied yet your efforts are not paying off... Well wait till the results... JC life is hectic... My life have nv been so occupied before, having SLC camp next week... And guess its more work and work after exams, still got PW to complete... Seems like nv ending... Gosh!
Feeling moody these days, dunno whether becos of exams or wad, but exams definately drained my brain juices to the max, conclusion is I hate exams...

Had cell yesterdae, after hearing wad candice shared, kinda agree with her... Ever since I went to Thailand for service learning and ended O' levels last year, I dont really see the purpose of studying, like wad for? Theres so much more meaningful things to do out there and here I am wasting my time burying myself in books just to get a piece of paper to secure a job in future... Well thats the reality of life I know but still, I dont believe studies is everything... Im not looking for a high quality life in future... To me if im can feel my stomach everydae and have clothes to wear tts good enuff... So whats with the grades... Theres something more in life... After spending just a week with those kids in Thailand, I've gain so much more things that what books in all these years could nv teach me... Their smiles made me satisfied... Those HIV orphans there are living each day so fufillingly though they are poor because they noe perhaps they may not get a chance to see the sun rise tml while we have everything here and yet we are struggling with the demands of the society and our parents and not given a chance to do what we want...
Such irony... But what to do? I still have to study... Give me a choice Ill just immediately quit school now and do voluntary work... Or maybe join the Care Corner in Thailand... But still God's will must come first...

- Service is nothing but LOVE is work clothes-

Somethimes I just wish that I nv grew up and remain as innocent and carefree as a kid... But sometimes I just cant wait to grow up and lead my own life doing what I really want to do without my parents control... Right now its the worst cos Im neither here nor there... Haiz... Nvm enough of whining... After talking so much the end result is I still have to study no matter wad... Haiz going to my history notes now... =(