Sermon juz rocks todae!!! Its simple and straightforward... Its abt the 3Ps below... Nice... Made me reflect...
Since the holis ended and skool starts... Everything had been so fast paced tt it leaves me breathless... No time to care abt Gods business and juz was so occupied with skool hw and assignments... All the copying in skool...Plus training for nationals... Was juz so occupied and cant be bothered with all the vision He gave me and stuff...
The sermon really made me reflect... The purity of my speech, my testimony in skool... How has tt been so far... Guess was bad... Copying of hw and stuff... I mean everyone is doing it, wads the big deal... But todae God juz told me tt its not alright... Trying to stick up lyk a sore thumb is not easy but tts wad God wans me to be... Set apart frm the rest and really live differently...
HArd... Almost impossible for me i guess... But God suprises us with the most unexpected... So shall try walking in His righteousness... Help me Lord i pray!
Lotsa stuff flooded through my mind as each individuals came to pray for me... Things lyk how wad pple say affected me so much... How i cared abt my reputation, whether izzit in skool or church or cca... How Man will look at me if i behave differently frm them... Many more... And all these flashed through my mind and the Holy Spirit convicted me so deeply... Laid them down b4 the Lord... Asking Him to help me and juz arrest all of them and take them away frm me in the name of Jesus...
Was not satisfied... Was afraid tt all this encounters will juz be a norm sat ex thingy where i juz cry at the altar and no change takes place... I dun wan things this way... Really want to change... The deep desire, deep longing inside my heart to change... But the temptation comes when Mon cums and i return back to skool... The norm skool life, everything will juz return to norm and all ended up to zero... Refused to end it this way... The norm routine... Wanted something deeper, something tt will stay deep inside me heart and cause me to change inside out... The deep encounter tt im waiting for... Refused to leave the altar... Sat there for quite some time... Was telling God tt i wasnt satisfied, i want something more... There must be more than this... Told Him tt I really want to change and was juz crying out to Him and asking Him to give me a deep deep encounter tt ill nv forget and will hold on to so tightly... Crying...
Candice came and prayed... The hunger, the thirst, the deep longing for Him... Her words struck me so hard... "A Christian life is not about juz struggling and break through and after breaking through struggle again, its more than that... Its the hunger, the thirst... How deep U yearn for Him... How deep is ur longing for Him... Ur deep crying for Him..."
Then PCA came, prayed for empowerment in my life...
MAnz... Teared lyk mad... Mz gave me tissue... So nice... Shall keep it...
Sat there for quite long... Reflecting... This year haven started it well... Its juz too fast... Cant handle it cos God wasnt in the centre at all... Gotta put Him back to where He belong... Really pleaded with Him to help me to change... Really dun wan this to be juz another encounter and when i return back to skool its a k sarah sarah mentality... Self discipline...
Want to see the change inside of me tt cause my outward change oso... A life tt can be a testimony to pple and impact their lives... Lord this is my prayer...
Purity.Passion.Power
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